Father
we are coming to a close to this current year. I hope that we can close these feelings of loss and anger and frustration also. It's kind of overwhelming to have to deal with. I simply struggle with letting it all go.
While on the topic of struggling. Please look after mama. She isn't doing well health wise and she seems so sad and depressed lately. I know that it may get worse because the boys have left home. You know what she is going through with her in-laws that live with her. Just be there for her and give her a friend she can lean on and trust that will help her through these rough times.
As for her in-laws. Thank you for helping get rid of the anger I have held onto for so long. I just ask that you bless them and teach them kindness and help them be good to my mama.
Help me to find the place that you have for me. To be a good wife and mother and to concider them above myself . In the coming year help me to leave old self ghosts behind so that I may be fruitful and grow.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
December 20
Dear Father
Thanks you for this day. It is a new day with new things to happen. I am in your awesome hands and I Know you will take care of me.
My heart is on matters that are in your control. Please look after those that need homes and jobs and food. This time of year is hard to be with out those things. Thank you for providing for us.
Help me to consentrate on the positives in life instead of the negative. The negative have been grabbing at me and I fear I may be letting them sink their claws in.
Help me to consentrate on Things that are pure and true and right and trust worthy like you comand us to to in Phillipians 4:8.
Thanks you for this day. It is a new day with new things to happen. I am in your awesome hands and I Know you will take care of me.
My heart is on matters that are in your control. Please look after those that need homes and jobs and food. This time of year is hard to be with out those things. Thank you for providing for us.
Help me to consentrate on the positives in life instead of the negative. The negative have been grabbing at me and I fear I may be letting them sink their claws in.
Help me to consentrate on Things that are pure and true and right and trust worthy like you comand us to to in Phillipians 4:8.
Friday, December 17, 2010
December 17
Father
In your infinite wisdom you allowed things to happen the way they did yesterday. I feel disappointed yet relieved. Relieved because I know I listened to the advice of someone more wise than I am. Disappointed because things didn't happen as I wanted them to. I know that you have plans for me and you will not harm me but give me a future and a hope.
I am trusting you that you will take care of me and lead me to the path that is right. I am simply struggling with understanding and being human.
In your infinite wisdom you allowed things to happen the way they did yesterday. I feel disappointed yet relieved. Relieved because I know I listened to the advice of someone more wise than I am. Disappointed because things didn't happen as I wanted them to. I know that you have plans for me and you will not harm me but give me a future and a hope.
I am trusting you that you will take care of me and lead me to the path that is right. I am simply struggling with understanding and being human.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
dec. 15th
Father.
You are great and you know the things we need before we can have the words or thoughts to ask you for them, yet here I sit and I ask you to be with me tomorrow. Please guide me in the right job and the right decisions that will affect the rest of my family. Be with me as you always are and give me peace that this will be how you decide and take my worry away.
I am so excited for the future and the possibility to do your work. I feel frightened by that but I know that you were with Gideon as he was afraid. You helped him to conquer his fear and to trust in you completely. Please do that for me.
You are great and you know the things we need before we can have the words or thoughts to ask you for them, yet here I sit and I ask you to be with me tomorrow. Please guide me in the right job and the right decisions that will affect the rest of my family. Be with me as you always are and give me peace that this will be how you decide and take my worry away.
I am so excited for the future and the possibility to do your work. I feel frightened by that but I know that you were with Gideon as he was afraid. You helped him to conquer his fear and to trust in you completely. Please do that for me.
Monday, December 13, 2010
part two for Dec. 13th
Lord, you are deffinately my savior. You heard my prayers and you answered swiftly and you gave me the ability to express what was needed in a manner that I don't have to feel badly about. You held my hand and I am so grateful.
I only hope that I can learn from the experience and continue to grow. I ask that you help me to put the needs and wishes of the people that matter before those of myself.
I only hope that I can learn from the experience and continue to grow. I ask that you help me to put the needs and wishes of the people that matter before those of myself.
december 13
i can't seem to win for losing. i know its all in your hands. but im struggling. i didn't mean to disregard his wishes and I am not trying to cause him any grief. I don't know what to do to to make amends with this. Lord please give me the knowledge and the ability to do the right thing.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Dec 6 2010
Dear Father
Thank you for hearing my prayers and getting me through Saturday after the boss went nuts friday. You allowed me to remain calm and professional and do a great job. You are awesome and everything is to your glory. The bitter cold outside didn't feel so bitter knowing I allowed you to do what you do.
I continue to ask for patience and remembrance that everything happens in your time and not my own. You know how deeply I want to join and I know you are faithful. There are tests that must be finished before I can move onto the new material. I just thank you for this day and the sun and the laughter that comes from you.
Thank you for hearing my prayers and getting me through Saturday after the boss went nuts friday. You allowed me to remain calm and professional and do a great job. You are awesome and everything is to your glory. The bitter cold outside didn't feel so bitter knowing I allowed you to do what you do.
I continue to ask for patience and remembrance that everything happens in your time and not my own. You know how deeply I want to join and I know you are faithful. There are tests that must be finished before I can move onto the new material. I just thank you for this day and the sun and the laughter that comes from you.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
November 30
dear Father,
I am not feeling content with the job I have. I don't like this. I don't like that I seem to mess up all the time and he feels that he has to critise me and tell me he is losing patience with me or wonder if I am doing my job. Why do I feel that I have to be perfection and know that I never will be? It is frustrating. I want to quit and walk away but I know that wont solve anything. I know that you have stuff that you want me to learn and glean from this situation to take with me to the next. This job is your way of providing for me and giving me hope but I feel as tho I am losin perspective and hope. Please send me a sign of hope and encouragement. I know that through all things you are there. Help me to not doubt what I know to be true.
I am not feeling content with the job I have. I don't like this. I don't like that I seem to mess up all the time and he feels that he has to critise me and tell me he is losing patience with me or wonder if I am doing my job. Why do I feel that I have to be perfection and know that I never will be? It is frustrating. I want to quit and walk away but I know that wont solve anything. I know that you have stuff that you want me to learn and glean from this situation to take with me to the next. This job is your way of providing for me and giving me hope but I feel as tho I am losin perspective and hope. Please send me a sign of hope and encouragement. I know that through all things you are there. Help me to not doubt what I know to be true.
Thursday, November 11, 2010
November11,2010
Father,
Thanks for giving theose that fight four our country the bravery to do so. Thank you for those that fight for the freedom to read your words and have a persona relationship with you. Please be with them as they continue on their journey that you have set out for them.
Thanks for giving theose that fight four our country the bravery to do so. Thank you for those that fight for the freedom to read your words and have a persona relationship with you. Please be with them as they continue on their journey that you have set out for them.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
November 9 2010
Dear Father,
I am writing you to share what I want the world to know, or at least how I believe you want things. When I say You, I don't mean YOU my father but the people out there that may come across this. I can only hope that it is what you want me to say.
I also posted this on my blog about just stuff. I hope that's ok.
"I don't care what you believe about gay people if its a sin or not. Because God told me "let ye who is with out sin cast the first stone." I believe there is something about love the sinner and not the sin. But to protest at a SOLDIERS funural is dispicable to me. You are hurting not that brave man or woman that died fighting for a country that he or she believed in but those people that love him. How can you claim to be a "Little CHRIST" if you are demanding death to people and are not treating people how you wish to be treated, if you are not loving your enemy as yourself because it is easy to love your brother?
How 'bout what it says in Matthew 7:1 “Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2 For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you" This one comes often to my mind when I catch myself being Judgemental. Would I want God, My loving and faithful Father to judge me the way inwhich I am judging this person? The answer is ALWAYS "NO!!!!!" Who would want to be judged by those standards? I have found we often get upset when we are judged but we don't give it ten seconds thought when we are the one doing this crime.
Anyway, I am writing this blog because I am sickened to my core that people think it is ok to protest at anyone's funural. And yet I am given a ray of hope when scanning the news and see that St. Charles county is telling the ACLU to suck it! ( know I know I shouldn't feel or think , talk or type that but its what I am feeling) with reguards to the courts saying it is unconstitutional to ban protesting at funurals. Manly because of that Church in Kansas or some place that goes all over the country protesting at the funurals of fallen soldiers because our country is accepting of gay people and that the death of every soldier is what happens when you go against God. here is a link to the story I am refering to http://www.stltoday.com/news/local/stcharles/article_2ad83ad4-7212-5e2b-9dbb-2378b402a282.html.
But like I said before, God doesn't want us to be like this! HE wants us to promote love! Because when we love we are showing the world HIS MIGHTY UNFAILING LOVE!!!!
I pray that the world opens up their eyes and sees His truth that it is HIS job to provide judgement and punishments not ours!"
I am writing you to share what I want the world to know, or at least how I believe you want things. When I say You, I don't mean YOU my father but the people out there that may come across this. I can only hope that it is what you want me to say.
I also posted this on my blog about just stuff. I hope that's ok.
"I don't care what you believe about gay people if its a sin or not. Because God told me "let ye who is with out sin cast the first stone." I believe there is something about love the sinner and not the sin. But to protest at a SOLDIERS funural is dispicable to me. You are hurting not that brave man or woman that died fighting for a country that he or she believed in but those people that love him. How can you claim to be a "Little CHRIST" if you are demanding death to people and are not treating people how you wish to be treated, if you are not loving your enemy as yourself because it is easy to love your brother?
How 'bout what it says in Matthew 7:1 “Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2 For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you" This one comes often to my mind when I catch myself being Judgemental. Would I want God, My loving and faithful Father to judge me the way inwhich I am judging this person? The answer is ALWAYS "NO!!!!!" Who would want to be judged by those standards? I have found we often get upset when we are judged but we don't give it ten seconds thought when we are the one doing this crime.
Anyway, I am writing this blog because I am sickened to my core that people think it is ok to protest at anyone's funural. And yet I am given a ray of hope when scanning the news and see that St. Charles county is telling the ACLU to suck it! ( know I know I shouldn't feel or think , talk or type that but its what I am feeling) with reguards to the courts saying it is unconstitutional to ban protesting at funurals. Manly because of that Church in Kansas or some place that goes all over the country protesting at the funurals of fallen soldiers because our country is accepting of gay people and that the death of every soldier is what happens when you go against God. here is a link to the story I am refering to http://www.stltoday.com/news/local/stcharles/article_2ad83ad4-7212-5e2b-9dbb-2378b402a282.html.
But like I said before, God doesn't want us to be like this! HE wants us to promote love! Because when we love we are showing the world HIS MIGHTY UNFAILING LOVE!!!!
I pray that the world opens up their eyes and sees His truth that it is HIS job to provide judgement and punishments not ours!"
Monday, November 8, 2010
November 8,2010
Dear Father,
I am struggling today to remain content and steadfast. I want more than what I have because my dreams are big and I have held them off until the children were in school. I am lonely for the young spirited girl I used to be. I look in the mirror and I am sadded by the lack of real knowedge of who I am.
I know that you have a plan for me and that it all happens in your time and not my own. I don't want to seem ungrateful for all that you have given me, yet I know I am. I don't like that I am ungrateful. I don't want to be this selfish woman. I want to live a life of gratitude, but I think I am lost in the sauce somewhere.
I miss being in your house on Sunday mornings. Could you please help me gather the courage to find a new home of worship. I want my children to grow up in that atmosphere of reverense to you.
I am struggling today to remain content and steadfast. I want more than what I have because my dreams are big and I have held them off until the children were in school. I am lonely for the young spirited girl I used to be. I look in the mirror and I am sadded by the lack of real knowedge of who I am.
I know that you have a plan for me and that it all happens in your time and not my own. I don't want to seem ungrateful for all that you have given me, yet I know I am. I don't like that I am ungrateful. I don't want to be this selfish woman. I want to live a life of gratitude, but I think I am lost in the sauce somewhere.
I miss being in your house on Sunday mornings. Could you please help me gather the courage to find a new home of worship. I want my children to grow up in that atmosphere of reverense to you.
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